jayejaye - It's so nice to hear when one of us LTTTC'ers achieves a natural pregnancy... Congratulations again!!! Thank you for your insight on your experience with trying to fall with #2... It always helps to read other people's stories :hugs:
MummyNaomi - Good Luck for your appointment today . I hope you can jump straight in and get started and that your FS can shed some light on your shorter cycle length.
Let us know how you go today..
Joy08 - No worries hun... Oh, the count down is on for you - yay ! Not long before you will be jabbing away, ha, ha! I find it so funny that we get so excited and look forward to giving ourselves needles . All part of AC I guess!
AFM - Hope I don't bore anyone here but here is my experience so far at returning to AC for #2...
Ok, It has been weird (I don't know how I feel really)... and I don't know exactly why? All I can come up with is that it is weird because it is a totally different experience than trying for #1.
Different Because
I am really distracted with life at the moment - DS has been ill (he is getting better now), someone ran up the back of my car, it's DS 1st b'day this weekend & DS has now been confirmed to have an allergy to both dairy and soy so he has been placed on a restricted diet which barely leaves him with anything to eat!. With #1 my whole entire life (and I mean whole entire life!) was focused on AC. I feel kind of distanced from it this time round which I guess is a good and bad thing? Good for not stressing so much over it but bad because I feel guilty for not focusing on it more (which makes me feel like we won't be successful as I feel like I am not trying as hard this time... hope that makes sense?)
The type of pressure to succeed is different - with #1 my entire focus was to get a baby, no matter how many tries it took us. I was not going to stop until I was successful! This time round for #2, although I really, really want another bub (and a sibling for DS), I know that DH and I will put a limit on the number of times we will try. Money is an object for us this time round, whereas with #1 I would have sold my house! So the pressure is more money focused I think???
Starting with an FET - Starting with a natural FET is also weird as it is not a very involved process... all I have had is BT's and then the transfer. No big lead up jabbing away and no EPU - kinda feels like we aren't doing AC for some reason. I think I read N2L describe it as when she is doing a natural cycle (no AC) it feels like she is not TTC. I feel the same with this I guess. I know it sounds a bit weird and I would 100% prefer to start with FET's than a stim but there just wasn't the same lead up as there was when started with AC trying for #1.
Knowing what is feels like to be pregnant - I have just started the 2ww (2dp5dt) and I already feel like it hasn't worked as with DS I without a doubt, felt him implant. I guess I have that expectation now and because I haven't felt anything I feel like this hasn't worked already . I suppose it’s a bad thing but now I know I am going to compare symptoms with when I fell pregnant with DS which was a totally different anxiety of not knowing what it felt like to be pregnant.
Being wiser about the whole experience - just knowing that in this game anything goes. We ended up finishing with the mentality that expect the worst and be nicely surprised when things go your way! I guess it is a protection mechanism that we are approaching trying for #2 with... with #1, at first... we were all hyped and positive and expected to just get pregnant straight away!
Girl or Boy? - I think also that I really want a girl as I have a DS already. I know that we will only have 2 children (if we are lucky enough to be blessed with a #2) as I can't afford another, so if we get a boy that will be it. I will totally love DS #2 (if that is the way things go) just as much and I know that DS #1 would be so, so happy to have a baby brother. I guess now that we are trying I am anxious that if I do get pregnant, and it is a DS, it officially means that I will not get my DD. Before starting to try for #2 I could always say to myself you still have another chance to get your DD.... I know that sounds silly... but it is how I feel.
Anyway - enough rambling, ha, ha! I'm sure some of you have fallen asleep by now so wakey, wakey!!!
Sending lots and lots of and to us all.
Last edited by Coral73; July 6th, 2011 at 02:26 PM.
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