i totally understand how you feel.sometimes its so hard to act positive when deep down all you really want to do is scream and yell.

I am going to find christmas really hard as we will be with Dp's family for christmas day and his youngest sister in the time we have been ttc has had two little girls who will be 3yrs old and 7 months at christmas time and his younger brothers gf will be about a month away from having their baby boy (first boy grandchild in 14 years) so i think will definately need to hide out with the drinkies that day (unless our iui next month is successful)