Ugh! I'm going to have to stop reading tonight, otherwise I'm never going to stop crying! I think I'm just completely strung out emotionally - so saying all those lovely things about me is just beautiful, but it's really getting the tears going tonight!

On a slightly sillier note (perhaps because it's the end of the year), I feel a bit like I'm reading a report comment there, Monnie!

DH is trying to talk me into eating dinner (yes, even at 10pm!), but I'm mostly just looking forward to taking my meds and going to bed... I think I'm going to have to take some mersyndol to help myself relax enough to sleep properly tonight.

I think what's making it all worse tonight is knowing that Christmas is coming... I would always get so excited about Christmas, and would feel just like a little kid again! But now... it's just really bringing into sharp focus the enormous empty hole in my life and in my heart. I'm sure you all know how it feels.

BW