CQ - if you are trying to manifest something (anything, really) - break it down until you understand the ESSENCE of the thing that your spirit desires. Eg I might say "I want a new house" but maybe really what I want is a sense of organisation (achievable through a clutter clean-out and a trip to Ikea) or a brand new lovely friend close to where I live, kwim? Once you have understood completely, what the ESSENCE of the thing is, you can go about drawing the essence into your life in other ways. Which in turn attracts more of the same.

In answer to your original question:
Do you hate you? The universe is only going to send back at you what you broadcast out to it in the first place!