Does the universe hate me

[Inanna]

Firstly CQ big hugs darling woman... Life is really really tough sometimes - and what we are all feeling is relative.

I have some thoughts/beliefs that I will share - sift thru it and take what feels right and think about what doesn't! I agree 200% with Lulu - putting thoughts "out there" is necessary - but we have other parts that need to be worked on. We need (I believe) to work on our mind, our bodies, our emotions & our spirit. To only read self help books and do nothing else means we forget 75% of us! To only meditate and read religious/spiritual teachings means we forget 75%. To hone our bodies and not take care of the other parts of ourselves etc etc...


Are you familiar with Rumi?

"I saw grief drinking a cup of sorrow and called out, 'It tastes sweet does it not?' 'You've caught me,' grief answered, 'and you've ruined my business! How can I sell sorrow when you know it's a blessing?'

What that says to me is that we look at something as awful, terrible "bad" but we choose how to perceive that. Yes, there are awful things in life that are very difficult to bear - but we can still ultimately choose weather we grow from them, learn from them - thus they are not truly "sorrows" but amazing teachings. Sometimes it feels like life just throws one curveball after another - we as humans can truly reach a place where we thank those curveballs - for they can (if we choose) help us to further our spiritual journey. For that's what we are - spiritual beings having a human experience! That's a really tough gig to choose but we chose it. Now we have a responsibility to live the best way we can. Not to run from the difficulties - for it is in them that we truly test our mettle.

I do not believe that there is a "bad" or "good" situation. They are all how we perceive them. We need to really KNOW that just as one foot goes after another so life chages. What is happiness today can toorrow be sorrow. So, living in this moment is really important.

Journalling is a great tool in times like these. Thinking of you...

[Ca Plane Pour Moi]

CQ, it's from Monty Python's The Meaning of Life.

I agree with Flowerchild: struggles are a blessing in disguise. Only FC put it better!

[AnyDream]

CQ - if you are trying to manifest something (anything, really) - break it down until you understand the ESSENCE of the thing that your spirit desires. Eg I might say "I want a new house" but maybe really what I want is a sense of organisation (achievable through a clutter clean-out and a trip to Ikea) or a brand new lovely friend close to where I live, kwim? Once you have understood completely, what the ESSENCE of the thing is, you can go about drawing the essence into your life in other ways. Which in turn attracts more of the same.

In answer to your original question:
Do you hate you? The universe is only going to send back at you what you broadcast out to it in the first place!

[bon]

It's one thing to put a thought or a request out there to the universe, its another thing entirely to actually believe that you are going to get it. If you ask for something, but deep down don't actually think you will receive it or don't believe you deserve to receive it, then it won't happen.

[C~Q]

Wow you've all given me a lot to think about. Thank you so much for your replies and your honesty, I really appreciate the time and thought that you've put into your advice. Everything that everyone says makes sense.

I guess I just wander if things will happen if they're meant to be or if we should try and make them happen - or if we try and we're not supposed to willl that make it not happen?

I feel really superficial becasue the thing i've askd for seems to have paled in the wake of the bad news that I found out after I asked...but I still want it. I feel like I should be asking for a way out of this mess but i'm not, i'm asking for something else that isn't anywhere near as important.

Wow, the ramblings of a confused woman lol!