Thanks Ladies for your thoughts and support.

I dont work wednesday's (i have dropped down to 4 days a week since Katelyn died) so when i got here this morning and read all your messages it really lifted my spirits.

So i went to the doctor on Tuesday night. Basically the text book treatment for FVL is Asprin (100mg per day). Under my doctors instruction i am already taking this. However everything that i have read on the internet says that the treatment should be Heparin (low molecular weight) or a combination of Heparin and Asprin. So i questioned my doc on this. The recommendation actually came from the OB who delivered Katelyn. My Doc said he would call a specialist that he knows in Perth to get his opinion. The specialist agreed that he would advise me to take Asprin unless i have had more than 3 losses. But the final decision is up to me i can take the Heparin if i want. This makes me angry for 2 reasons: 1) Why is there two different treatments once you have had more losses? I dont want to have more than one. I feel like they have the attitude that we will try this and if it doesnt work it doesnt matter we can try something else and 2) Why should i have to make a decision. As a layperson how can i be expected to know which is the best treatment that is going to affect the rest of my life. So i have decided to go to Perth and see the specialist. I have made an appointment but i cant get in until the 27th of July. My doc says not to stop ttc though because i can always make a decision on the spot and treatment can wait a few weeks after we find out we are pg (as long as i am taking the asprin).

So i am really torn as to what to do. One part of me feels like i should trust my doctors and specialists as i have two opinions now and the other part feels like i should take the Heparin as then if something does happen to another baby then i have done everything that i could have done and not always wonder - might this have been different if i had taken the heparin.

It is so hard. The heparin has to be injected but we all do what we need to do to get a healthy baby and if this is what i have to do then of course i will do it. Can i ask for your advice on the emotional side of this?

Tootie, thanks for the support, your messages really help.

Angel, Thanks for the baby dust - you are the first person to send me that! Cheers.

Zola, Thanks, i know it is good that i am getting back to my regular cycle it just sucks that we have to have a cycle again doesnt it.

Kirsty, Thanks for replying it is so good to hear from someone in the same "time limit" as me, i dont feel so much of a freak for losing my baby so late now. When it first happened i hadnt known anyone who had lost a baby so late and not been a full term stillbirth. I am so sorry about little Alex. The midwives can be amazingly supportive cant they. The one that was with us when Katelyn was delivered (the specialist delivered her) was crying and it meant so much that someone else appreciated the loss of her little life.

Meg, Its hard to know that we have these disorders to overcome in the next pregnancies isnt it. Sometimes i think that if we didnt have anything wrong with us we could just hope for the best next time round and on the other hand at least we have something that we can try to treat.

I am so saddened to hear about all your little babies. My hear goes out to each of you. Our children are their own person from the moment that they are conceived, thats why it hurts so much to lose them. Other people dont quite understand that though. You dont until you get here.

Thanks again - Wishing you all a great day.