Hun, please don't beat yourself up like that . You have done nothing wrong! When we lose a pg, it's so, so easy to blame ourselves, isn't it? After all, the embryo/baby was in our body, it failed to protect it, right? Not really. How many women out there, get horribly drunk, not once but several times, take nurofen and other drugs that are a big no no in pg, jump around silly and do other big no no things not knowing they are pg, only to end up having a relatively if not completely healthy bubs. Please don't blame yourself. A sister of a good friend of mine, didn't know she was pg until she was 5 months along. She drank like a fish and the little girl is fine.