didn't want to have to write in here...

[Heaven]

Thankyou all for your beautiful healing words
I'm feeling a bit better.
Had the second blood test yesterday, OUCH!! Didn't have the normal lady, and she gave me a bruise. It has never hurt before, I think the other lady is really good.
Anyway, go to see the Dr on Tuesday for the results and whatever else.
Still only having spotting, so this is day 10 of it. Had none yesterday so I was getting worried thinking it wasn't going to happen and I'd have to have a D&C but this morning when I woke up there's a bit more than usual and some pink spotting which looks hopeful (ok, that sounds really odd but I just want it to be over now). Sorry about the TMI.
I am going to see my acupuncturist on Wednesday so hopefully if nothing has happened he can help. I think I'll ask for a medical certificate from my Dr just to say that it's definately not ok so I can give it to the AP so he doesn't feel weird about trying to help a m/c happen!
Have been temping again but that's not giving me any insight into when it will happen, damn, my temp did dip but for the last few days it's been going up again so no help there.
Ok, well that's all from me, thankyou all!

[butterfly_warrior]

Hang in there, SaraJane. Remember that God is in control...

Hopefully things will get started and be over soon. Just look at how unwilling your body is to let go of this precious angel... Thinking of you... sometimes the wait is the worst of all...

BW

[Shanti]

Sara, I only just found this thread I'm so sorry once again for your HUGE loss.... You know I am thinking of you and your DH every day and I am so proud of you for the way you've handled it all so far, you are doing so well.... cry when you need to cry, smile when you want to smile, and don't feel bad for any feelings you have as it is all normal

You have really gone through an emotional time the last few days I'm so sorry

[Heaven]

Thanks BW and Ren.

Well, more bad news for me. A family member is really unwell, we knew this was coming and I have to go away tomorrow morning early. Don't know how long for, probably 2 wks. We were planning on going on the weekend anyway for a holiday but now I just have to go a bit earlier.
ANYWAY, I'm meant to have my Dr appt tomorrow morning for the results of my BT and whatever else. So I rang them but she's not there today, my 2nd BT results haven't came back but the first have and they said HCG: 8900 and Progesterone: 28. So it really doesn't mean anything, can't see how fast it's going down or anything. But they've written a note for the Dr to ring me tomorrow to talk about it.
So, what I want to know is, I'm going away, there's nothing I have to worry about is there? Unless something happens and I'm feeling really sick or bleeding a lot? Then I will go to the hospital down there. It's still just spotting at the moment but has increased a bit the last 2 days, still not much tho. Any advice on what I have to do, look out for or anything??
Thanks girls.

[Kitt3n]

Oh SJ, you poor thing!

Try and rest, as hard as it is. If the bleeding gets worse or you get a different coloured discharge go straight to ER (you may be haemorraging) (SP??)

Take care and let your body and heart mend xxx

[Heaven]

Thankyou Cat

[MeredithD]

SJ - I am so so sorry for your loss.Life can be so cruel - to give us a precious gift then snatch it away just as our dreams are unfolding! It is so unfair and my heart breaks for you and all you are going through. Sadly, i know all those emotions only to well.
Not trying to change your mind on the D&C issue but I will just give you my personal story and opinion. I have done it both ways and would defnitely go the D&C. I have lost 4 babies now but actually "losing" them, my body is not keen on at all. My first m/c was quite early (5 weeks) and I did start out the "natural' way but after a lot of pain, ended up with a D&C as it just wasn't all clearing out. My next two were "missed m/c's" and I elected D&C because I couldn't handle carrying dead babies around whilst still feeling all the pregnancy symptoms. I needed closure and I also wanted to have my babies tested. Mind you, I still ended up with retained products after both D&Cs. Last time need a second D&C but this most recent m/c looks like I will pass the rest myself.
I am sorry if I am sounding so negative to "natural" m/c. I am in no way trying to deter you from the very personal decision you have made. Just wanted to warn you that it doesn't always "complete" itself naturally and may take quite awhile eg weeks. With your HCG and prog levels still quite high, your body does still think it is pg and so may hang on to your baby for some time yet. Even after a D&C almost 3 weeks ago, my HCG is still 900 (I still feel m/s almost all day!) and my temp only dropped yesterday so I am guessing, without surgery, my babies would still be in there now, almost a month after they died.Personally, I just could not have handled carrying them around that long.
Praying for you that things happen sooner rather than later and you are able to "birth" your baby as you wish. Remember, your health IS a priority so if things aren't going well, then please get medical attention.