My DP and I also had a silent miscarriage early on, and it truly devastated us. We grieved in very different ways, with DP trying to be the solid rock that he thought I needed. I couldn't even look in the mirror and see the failure that I felt I was. My mum was also worried about me. Ive become quite at peace with the whole 'blame' thing now.
For me, time is the ultimate healer, but more importantly its what you do with that time that will make it easier for your heart to move through this. Not get over, but get through.
I'd love to sit here and say "it will all be fine" but in my reality, I still think of my angel Sunny, and its been 108 weeks and two pregnancies later. I still grieve. I grieve alone mostly (my DP knows my triggers and when the waterworks might start) and in private. When I lost our Sunny, I felt very cheated of life. I would also think "I'd be this far along, i'd be this big, i'd be doing this". It didnt help that one of my closest GF's was due the week before me, I completely and sadly shut her from my life, until I got pregnant again. Im very lucky that she understood.
Im also an early childhood teacher, and I couldn't handle watching LO's make cute Easter treats etc for their own families, i'd think while watching them, "Sunny should be doing this for me one day, but never will now".

I suppose in my post im trying to say, you're are not and never will be alone in this journey. Grief can last a lifetime or a short time, both are fine and both are normal.
I feel exactly what you're saying, but I won't promise anything, I just want you to have hope.

xx