Had a scan today, but no heartbeat. I knew from the moment I saw the screen, cos it was far too small for 12 weeks. I just closed my eyes so I couldn't see that hearbeat that wasn't there.
Midwife could feel my uterus was about 12 weeks on Sat, so I felt better as I have been very nervy. Suffered so much stress in the last couple of months I wasn't sure I could hold on.
I had a little bit of brown bleeding but midwife said it could have been from implantation. Now I suppose it is (how do you describe it?)
What happens now.? Have to call the doctor this p.m.
What happens? Can they tell me WHY? Do I have to go to hospital. ?This whole thing is BULL****. O.K I was scared about having another bub so close to Mitchell, but I didn't ask for this. I was starting to look SO forward to another one. Tiny, warm ,body close to mine.
This is the worst day of my life.