I can't believe it's February and nearly 4 months since we lost our wee man.
Over the last 3 or 4 weeks I have been feeling like it's only just hit me and I'm a little concerned that looking back over November and December I can barely remember them. Sometimes I think of things that have happened and find I'm not able to tell if they happened before or after the MC. It's a bit like looking through a fog.
I find friends and family are asking how I'm feeling. I don't think they really asked me this in the first couple of months after the MC. I think they feel that a reasonable amount of time has gone past now and I am likely to be feeling 'better', i.e. less likely to get upset if they ask me. Not many people like it when I tell them I'm feeling worse....and I do tell them, which is very unlike me. I would normally never dream of saying anything other than I am feeling fine or doing OK. Certainly not to those who I'm not that close to.

Anyway, I don't think I'm making much sense here, I guess I'm just trying to ask if anyone else has found that they feel worse so far down the line.

How do I let people know that I'm not doing that great without overly worrying them or making them feel uncomfortable. I finally feel that the taboo of talking about babies and pregnancy around me is lifting. (It drove me crazy that no-one would talk about other pregnant women near me or would not refer to my pregnancy at all.) But I am actually find it all really hard to listen to now when I really truthfully didn't before. Does that make sense?

waffling a bit now, sorry.

thanks for listening again,