Kermit4-it makes a lot of sense i make out that i am doing ok and getting on with life around my friends and family when inside i am still heartbroken i do that so they don't worry about me but it will be a year next month since we lost abbi and i cope better in day to day life but i am no better with pregnant people or babies and feel i am actually getting worse because we are trying to fall pregnant and as i am getting older i worry it will never happen but i will say you will know who and when you can talk to about your true feelings i know who will cope with my pain and who i'm better off not saying anything to as it only hurts me if i have upset them all i can say is over time it will get better and in your own way you will cope the best way you can to get on with life and i hope that the future brings you a healthy baby.