Kermit4-it makes a lot of sense i make out that i am doing ok and getting on with life around my friends and family when inside i am still heartbroken i do that so they don't worry about me but it will be a year next month since we lost abbi and i cope better in day to day life but i am no better with pregnant people or babies and feel i am actually getting worse because we are trying to fall pregnant and as i am getting older i worry it will never happen but i will say you will know who and when you can talk to about your true feelings i know who will cope with my pain and who i'm better off not saying anything to as it only hurts me if i have upset them all i can say is over time it will get better and in your own way you will cope the best way you can to get on with life and i hope that the future brings you a healthy baby.
Ladies thank you so much for your replies. It does make me feel a bit less worried that you both have felt in a similar way. My poor DH is so bewildered by me at the moment and every so often I could swear he looks at me like I'm going mad. Sometimes I see such worry in his eyes that I start to think I should be really worried too.
Deep down I know that there is no right or wrong way to walk along this road, every one will do it differently and I guess that's why it's so hard for friends and family to understand where my head is at. I am just so fed up of everyone around me pretending like it never happened. I think I feel angry that everything and everyone around me can be so NORMAL so easily when it takes so much work for me right now. It just worries me that I too found NORMAL so easy to do up until last month.
Ferrals- I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious Abbi. I wish you strength and peace as you face her anniversary next month. I wanted to wish you all the best in your TTC journey. I suppose it's not much help to tell you to stay positive. I do hope however, that on the days where you don't feel so positive you remember that out of all the ladies here, someone will be thinking positive for you. You are certainly in my thoughts and prayers right now.
Spring- Thank you so much for your words of support and the much needed hug! Thinking of my grief as a flight plan brought a smile to my face as you really hit the nail on the head. It does feel a bit like soaring/falling sometimes. I'm so sorry you lost your precious son, thankyou for sharing some of your grief experience. I know that the price of such wisdom is so huge and painful, it means a lot that you took the time to reassure me.
Hun, don't feel bad about the way you are feeling and don't worry about other people worrying about you. The journey you are on at the moment is so up and down. I had days when I was feeling really strong and next day I would be an emotional wreck and I'm talking about a year after losing Emmanuel. Massive hugs to you and just take one day at a time.
I was down for quite a few months after my loss I think that straight after it you are just numb or in a fog like you say, and when the reality sets in it can hit really hard. You can't set a time frame on the grieving process, unfortunately it takes however long it takes. Although people will either assume you are or expect you to be over it after a period of time
Honestly, I'd come straight out and tell people you are not doing great, I think it just adds to the burden when you have to pretend that everything is hunky dory when its not. Some people will be understanding so you'll know who you can lean on and others won't be so supportive.
You are so right that there is no right or wrong way to cope with this. Big, big kermit xo
Just wanted to send you my support and understanding. Grief can take a long while, and present itself at odd times, a long time down the track.
I still get the wind knocked out of me some days, remembering certain things, grieving for our lost babies.
Hang in there, be gentle with yourself.
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I think that straight after it you are just numb or in a fog like you say, and when the reality sets in it can hit really hard. You can't set a time frame on the grieving process, unfortunately it takes however long it takes. Although people will either assume you are or expect you to be over it after a period of time 
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