Hi Nicolab - Im sorry to hear you are going through this.

There is no time limit on grief, and many of those who havent been through a loss (or more) or have gone on to have children dont realise/remember the profound effect it can have on you, months and months later, so they think you should be over it. I did cry in front of friends too and I know it made them uncomfortable, but I was hurting so bad and I couldnt make the tears stop no matter how hard I tried. I had to avoid people with babies, etc because it was too hard, I wasnt in the headspace to deal with it. You are absolutely not the only one to feel his way.

I am pg again now (9w) and while the pain of my recent m/cs has eased a little, it has been replaced with the very real fear that it may very well happen again.