Tegan, :hugs: to you matey. I am so sorry you had to go through this. As Melinda and Jo have said, you never do really get over it, but with time it does easier. You will never forget your little ~angel baby~ they will always hold a special place in your heart. I know for myself I still think about my 1st angel baby and ~Matthew~ and start crying all over again, like it was yesterday but I then try and think that they are up above looking down on me, watching out for Nicholas, Declan, Rob and I and I am sure that is exactly what your little one id doing too.

It is hard not to blame yourself, but please believe me there was nothing you could've done that would've prevented this.

I know at first it is so hard seeing pg women and new born babies, thinking why can't that be me etc... and it is difficult to try and be happy for these people, but again in time it does become easier and one day again soon you will be pg again and 9 months later have your gorgeous little bubs in your arms.

Whenever you need to cry, yell scream etc... do it. A midwife told me, when I lost ~Matthew~ to punch a pillow to get all my sorrow, anger and hurt out. It is so much better to let it all out than keep it bottled up inside.

Give yourself time matey, as it was not that long ago and please know if you ever need to vent again, we are all here for you. Last but not least do not ever feel selfish for feeling sad, it is part of the grieving process .

Please take care of yourself.

Loadsa Love and Hugs