I feel so sick in my stomach, i dont know if i am actually sick or if its just knots over the whole thing.

Im so angry at him, why couldnt he have just said no mate dont want to go fishing tonight lets just stay here, would have made me feel a little better having him by my side.

Its my fault anyway, should have told him last night, but i didnt want to upset him with the whole thing until I was atleast capable of telling him without breaking down.

I just dont know what to do with myself now........................... I go into little staring moods when my head runs 1000 miles per second................... make the pain stop.........someone please make it go away................................