Huge hugs to you.
I had a blighted ovum and lost it at 9 weeks. I felt cheated like you, that I was stupid for thinking I was having a baby when I never was, to this day I usually don't tell people it was a BO because I dont want them to discount it as a baby. To me I was having a baby, for those weeks it WAS a baby no matter what happened in the end.

I am so sorry your experience was so awful, I didn't have to go to hospital with mine but can still remember the incredible grief at the loss.

Take care of yourself hun, we are all here for you.