lost my little daughter...

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Karin,
I just noticed that your little boy and my girl have the same birthday a year apart. I can imagine how special he is. When I lost my girls the hospital in Glg was less than what I could say was emotionally supportive. I'm glad you have nicer memories of spending time with Kathleen.
Bec

I am sorry you had a bad experience with Geelong hospital and probably didn't get the memories you ought to have had. I found the midwifes absolutely amazing, but the doctors... well, they can seem pretty heartless. Right now I just don't like and trust doctors at all. I wish I did... I am sure there are some good ones out there. But anyway, the midwifes were so encouraging. I was really scared to see my little girl after birth, I just didn't know what to expect, what she would look like, but the midwife really encouraged me to hold her. I probably would have anyway, but I am glad she encouraged me. I would have regretted it for the rest of my life if I hadn't. I feel embarrased even mentioning it now that I hesitated to hold her, but that is the truth... The midwife also took pictures of us and Kathleen while she was still alive, and got her hands- and footprints. We really did have the perfect midwife for which I am so thankful.

Take care.
Karin

[SHELL 70]

Hi Karin, just thinking of you & wandering how you are feeling. Life seems to go back to normal for everybody else but will it ever be normal for us?????????
I think that it is so special you had a lovely midwife who helped you & encouraged you to spend time with Kathleen. I remember saying to my DH when our little angel had died in utero that we probably wouldn't want to see our baby incase she was blue or didn't look like she was meant to but I was wrong. We spent 36 hours with our STILLBORN bubba but I wouldn't change it for a second. Although Carly was lifeless, she was still our beautiful baby and I treasure the time spent & we made the most of every second we shared. I too have photos & foot/hand prints which are so special... our memories are all we have so I'm pleased you have these also. I promise these will help you in the days, months & years to follow.
Please take care & know we are all thinking of you. Big hugs to you.
Shell xo

[roosa]

Hi Karin, just thinking of you & wandering how you are feeling. Life seems to go back to normal for everybody else but will it ever be normal for us?????????
I think that it is so special you had a lovely midwife who helped you & encouraged you to spend time with Kathleen. I remember saying to my DH when our little angel had died in utero that we probably wouldn't want to see our baby incase she was blue or didn't look like she was meant to but I was wrong. We spent 36 hours with our STILLBORN bubba but I wouldn't change it for a second. Although Carly was lifeless, she was still our beautiful baby and I treasure the time spent & we made the most of every second we shared. I too have photos & foot/hand prints which are so special... our memories are all we have so I'm pleased you have these also. I promise these will help you in the days, months & years to follow.
Please take care & know we are all thinking of you. Big hugs to you.
Shell xo

Up and down and a little bit forward... That probably describes my life right now. Today I am editing the video that was taken at the funeral on April 3rd. I am not really watching it, just editing it, if that makes any sense. Video editing is what I do as a freelancer and so I want to do this and also send it to the families overseas, but I am not really ready to actually watch it.
You are absolutely right. Life seems to go back to normal. People start to forget what has happened to you when the reality is that the pain will never completely go away, I know that. There will always be things that remind me of what we have lost and what could have been.
I am so glad you too got to spend time with your beautiful Carly and that you have some beautiful memories to cherish. Was she your first?

Karin

[SHELL 70]

Hi Karin, thanks for your reply. What a brave thing you are doing with the video of Kathleen's srvice. As hard as it is now I promise that one day you will be glad you have it & I think that is lovely for your family to have a copy.
Yes Carly was our first and it feels like only yesterday but it's nearly 9 years...
Life does go on but it is still tough, some days worse than others. Only this year have I been able to put together a scrapbook album of Carly & I am so happy that I have a few photos etc. My memories of our time spent is deep in my heart and I will treasure them forever as you too will of your time with Kathleen.
Please take care & take each day at a time. I'm thinking of you..............
Big hugs Shell xo