Hey ladies. I'm okay. Really. I'm not 100% sure it's a miscarriage.
I was feeling very pregnant. You know that feeling. Even DH mentioned he thought I might be UTD. Got what appeared to be implantation bleeding. Was getting quietly excited. But refusing to do a stick test, as I wanted to hold out as long as possible. Then a couple of days ago my "period" began. Extremely heavy. Cramping. Crazy amounts of clots. Every time I took a step I could feel it coming out.... I'm sure you all know what I'm describing.

But. I never took the test. So I'll never know for certain. Wise words from a bb friend were if I really *wanted* to know. Or if I would rather palm it off as a crazy AF. I decided option two was better for my heart. Today my bleeding is still very heavy, but the clots are not as large. Who knows. If it was, it was early days, 4.5 weeks. My other miscarriages were 9 & 10 weeks

Shelby. No, I don't tell anyone but you girls. I find that awkwardness IRL just isn't worth it. *sigh* You are such an incredibly supportive friend. I'm so lucky to have you xx

Infact... All you girls. Its just so so nice.. so lovely to have an ear there listening. I really appreciate you all. Thank you xx

Keike - wow! so she'll be grandma and a new mum roughly the same time? .. I'm sorry...

Sara how did today go?

Love to all xx