Good luck for today Alison! Try not to stress (easier said than done I know) but hCG levels are not an exact science and Ive had not so perfect levels turn into successful pregnancies and beyond perfect levels end in heartbreak. Every woman is different so doubling times and levels vary; even between pregnancies!

Ugh AF reared her ugly head 5 days late. Atleast she didnt come 2 weeks late and ruin our holiday next week; small mercies.

Im struggling lately. Really struggling. The want and need for another baby is taking over me. Not to mention Ive got quite a few IRL friends who are pregnant. One being one of my closest friends; Im being the supportive unselfish friend that I am and slapping a smile on my face while Im dying inside but she just keeps whinging at me about feeling sick and how she wishes she could fast forward to the end of the pregnancy blah blah blah. Dont get me wrong, I know how sucky pregnancy can be (2 out of 3 with my kids were complete horror) and I know it sucks having to chase other kids while doing it but really................she's *****ing to the wrong person. At this point in time I would take 9 months of morning sickness, clicky hips, a waddle and no sleep; Ive realised just how precious pregnancy really is even if it sucks. She hasnt even stopped to consider how hard this is for me; not once asked me how Im doing and I think that hurts the most. I try not to project my issues onto others but people can still keep a little bit of compassion for someone faced with this situation cant they?

Ugh Im off to drown my sorrows in left over spaghetti bolognaise and a book before cracking open a block of chocolate, because I can.

to everyone xxx