Oh Wrangalove, I've been thinking of you too.
I guess I've had a massive practice run before this miscarriage so it's impact was not so acute for me, but I understand why it feels so awful - saying goodbye to your little baby, lost time, grieving what could of been, and all of the other complexities that go with it.
It isn't easy.
Be nice to yourself.
Let yourself feel whatever comes up, and don't fight it. The intensity passes quicker that way, even though parts of your grief will always be with you.
It will happen for you Wrangalove. I know that sense of feeling like time is stretched out in front of you as a huge expanse while everything reminds you of your loss. Lots of hugs xxx