awwwww

i followed your story all the way through in March and i am very sorry this happened again to you and I totally understand i have been there myself.

after trying for 18 months naturally we got our BFP but it was not to be we found out at 3 months there was only a sac and had a D and C. I didnt want to touch my partner for 2 or 3 months and couldnt even kiss him. I literally told him it made me feel sick like i was going to spew which was the truth. I told him im sorry i just dont feel "into" it and explained that anything sexual based felt wrong to me and i also told him it wasnt his fault and i didnt know why i felt this way and he was very understanding and in fact very supportive. He was happy enough to take long showers.... anyway the point is talk to him tell him what you are feeling just make it clear you dont know why and if he could be there for you through this rough time and when and if you are ready to be intimate you will make that move. I hope all goes well and I understand the not wanting to concieve again also. I did the same thing but after a few months gave in and it did take almost another year but we got there and all the pain of years before just seems to go out the window. Take care of yourself.