Thank you all so much for your messages, I think I have just read them all about 5 times I actually felt so sad that the other forum had nothing for people who have a miscarriage... I guess it wasn't intentional but I felt lonely that I couldn't write about what I'm going through there.

Alex, sadly I'm up in Auckland and I'm so so so sorry for your loss. Life sucks sometimes and this doesn't seem at all fair for anyone to go through. One of my best friends is pregnant with her second and another friend is trying for her second right now. They've had such smooth pregnancies.

I can see what you mean about m/c naturally and not having the d+c... my mind goes over the whole machine playing up routine too but then I remember it was only measuring at 10 weeks so I guess that helps me. It wasn't moving either and I just knew something was wrong, the lady was really quiet doing the scan until I said "is everything ok?"

I have read some stories about how painful a m/c can be for some people and that's why I'm feeling a little scared of it happening naturally before Monday.

I have wonderful family and hope time goes fast this weekend...

Thanks again.
Rachel