Just wanted to add my best wishes to you, kiwigirl. Reading your first post brought it all back to me. I remember waking in the middle of the night and just feeling so hollow. It really is so hard and I can only imagine having to wait for the d&c would not help. I was fortunate to go in the very next day after my m/c was confirmed.

But like you said, you WILL have a bubba. I'm almost 24 weeks now and while the sadness of my first loss will never entirely leave me, the future is a bright place.

Just be kind to yourself in these next few weeks.