I read your post.... and sobbed. I lost my twins one on new years eve and the other on new years day. I was due on end July. I sat here tonight and pictured how huge my tummy would have been by now. I would have been induced around 1st July. Sometimes, like tonight, it just hurts like hell. But most days I m alright and although it might not seem like you will ever be 'alright' it does happen. Time is the only healer. Just take it one day at a time. It will occasionally sneak up on you, like it is for me tonight, but take a deep breath, tomorrow is another day.