Thanks everyone. It's great to hear I'm not alone in my feelings (not that I'd wish these feeling or experience on anyone). I'll be honest in that I'm not really talking to anyone about my feelings. I've said little things to others, but no one really understands like you guys do. I don't even feel like DH really understands how I'm feeling. I think I don't like talking to others too much as I feel like all they want to know is when she's coming home so they can hold her. Well, they probably don't mean it to sound like that but that's the way it feels. Also, I hate being asked by family how she's doing all the time. I know they mean well, but there's not always anything significant to say....

Thanks for letting me ramble on to all of you.