It's a tough situation, as much as you long for the next baby & hope for a beautiful, full term, take home immediately baby, the fears can be completely overwhelming.

When we decided to TTC after DS1's traumatic birth & NICU time, I was absolutely beside myself with fear that we would have another premmie & I told myself that I couldn't cope if it happened.

Well, at 23 weeks when Sal got put onto bedrest until DS2 was born at 34 weeks & then until he came home, I managed to do it. You learn lessons about yourself & what you could cope with during the first experience, so I knew I couldn't cope with trying to work as well as juggle a premmie/my partner in hospital plus raise our then one year old. So I quit. We lived off our credit card & centrelink, stopped the mortgage & took as much pressure off as we could & we did it.

You can do it again if you have to, but lots and lots of premmie mums go on to have full termers & cruisy pregnancies. You will find ways to cope, because you have already proved how strong you already are! See counsellors, talk to friends, join support groups, do whatever you need to get through because these babies are so worth it in the end!

Good luck babe, crossing my fingers & toes for you!