Aww hun you are doing a truely amazing job

It is such a spin when your world is turned upside down when your little girl arrived so quickly and all in such of a hurry.
I found that I went through the "baby blues" as such a few times, and it is really important to have those times to yourself to have a cry and let it all out.

If you are worried about your supply maybe looks at ways to boost your supply, as you will be short on time I wouldn't worry about the Lactation cookies atm, unless Nanna cane make some up for you, but you can go for Fenugreek, Blessed Thistle, Milo and Aktavite are also great boosters and will also give you some energy, along with drinking lots of water. I went onto Motilium as it is hard work expressing all the time, I completely understand that part of what you are going through, because my DD wasn't anywhere near as early as Miss Heidi, but the getting up all hours of the night to hook up to the pump can be very tiring, I had alarms on my mobile phone to wake me up to express, a double electric pump is most certainly the way to go, it is a lot quicker and easier, you will really notice the difference.

I know it is hard, but for now don't worry about the amounts you are getting with each express, you will be easily covering what Heidi needs, just keep goin every 2-3 hours during the day for 20min or so and at night try not to go more than 5 hours between expressing sessions, and at most one large gap between. I know it is going to be hard work and I really wish I had the wealth of information that I have gathered from BB and the ABA when I was going through it all.

I hope things went smoothly with her central line today, and if it didn't happen it will in time, she is doing very well, and such a clever little girl to be doing so much breathing on her own, the girls are always stronger in NICU, they are just that bit further developed than the boys

One thing that might help DS is a few pictures of the NICU, ie entry doors, washing hands, Heidi's crib etc, so that he can look at them and you can sort of tell a story as you show him the photos, a bit like reading a book, that way he can become more familiar with the NICU, without it being all new with each visit.

Definitely the photos etc laminated and put on her isolette are a lovely idea, we have all of DD's and they are also a lovely keepsake. She also had a Panda given to her by DH he search the city for 4 hours finding the right one, and the Panda is symbolic of goodluck on the birth of a new baby and he was her protector, it was nice to know that he was always there watching her

Take care hun and I have you in my thoughts daily xxoo