Thanks Janie for your kind words & support. Heidi is still going really well, nice & stable and doing all the right things. Still has minimal breathing assistance, but she's the most amazing little girl. She's the tiniest one in the NICU but is the most settled and calm which is lovely to see. They weren't able to get a central line in yesterday so they'll be trying again today, probably as we speak. She had an ECG just to check her heart this morning which was all perfect and she is having head scans every 2-3 days to monitor things in her brain. So far so good. Her jaundice and bruising is all resolving nicely too so her pretty little face is getting even more beautiful every time we see her.

As for the expressing, I'm doing the best I can right now. I am sensing my supply starting to dwindle a little bit, but trying not to stress too much about it. I'm just trying to pump more often and during the night. I have purchased an electric pump which should arrive tomorrow hopefully, I've been using my trusty manual pump that I had when DS was born so hopefully that will make a big difference. I've been making the most of the pumps in the NICU when we're visiting too. Breastfeeding DS was an absolute disaster - really long story. I had a great supply, he just managed to rip me to shreds early on and I never recovered. I had a series of infections, one after the other and I got very unwell. We managed to express and feed EBM for 6 weeks then I was just too weak and had to make a decision that I never wanted too and still struggle with every day. So my milk for Heid is so important on so many levels.

DP and DS are doing well. We're all tired and drained but coping ok looking after each other. DS is kind of a bit little to really understand what is happening as yet. He's just spending a bit of extra time with his Nanna's which he loves. But he does know something is up. We took him in for a quick visit this morning and he was more fascinated by the blue lights Heidi was under rather than her! It won't take long and he'll get it though, he's a smart little cookie. DP is being my rock right now. He is still stunned that he has a baby girl and she is alive and doing so well - we both are. He misses her terribly and feels a bit helpless but is supporting me in every way I need.