The NICU journey is tough. Real tough. And you are doing it with a toddler - you are absolutely admirable.

Everyone hits the wall at least once. It's part of the journey. I hope the hospital has a social worker/psychologist you can talk to. I found them invaluable to just spit out EVERYTHING that was going on in my head and just to let go.

With the boobies - mine were different too. Somehow my left is the dud one. Chocolate comes from the right.... I named mine chocolate and caramel - chocolate flows beautifully but caramel was a bit gluggish...

You are doing a marvellous job with Heidi. She chose you for her Mummy for a very good reason. You can do ANYTHING.

Love and hugs.