hun. I am so sorry that you are going through yet another difficult patch The NICU rollercoaster unfortunately is a long and trying journey. I know this from my friend who has a healthy 4yo that started life as a 24w+2 premmie. Despite the fantastic result, I wouldn't wish the stress of the first months of his life on anyone. I so wish that you had the start to motherhood that you were expecting

Infinity, I don't know that any words will make today easier for you, but try and hang in there. Heidi has been a fantastic fighter so far, and after such great weight gains she is in a stronger position to face this next challenge. You are all in my thoughts and prayers hun, I hope there is better news soon