Keen & Sarah, am sending both of you atm. New babies can be really difficult to cope with. Even though you may think you will be able to handle it the reality is quite often the opposite. I found that seeing a new baby (or even a PG woman) ~ especially in the months after losing Alex ~ really bought it home to me that we wouldn't be experiencing the joy of a pregnancy or the excitement of welcoming a new member to our family. I would love to say it does get easier, but at first it takes a while, but eventually the bad days do get less. Please don't be hard on yourselves as grieving takes time, even when you think you are starting to move you can often find yourself right back at the start of it all for some unknown reason. I still have bad days & they can be a struggle, but I so far have managed to cope & not turn into an absolute madwoman (DH might not agree with that though).

I am beginning to dread Easter atm as Easter Saturday is one year since we lost Alex. I am trying not to think about it too much, but then I work in a store where as soon as you walk in the door there is a huge easter egg display, so that kinda brings it back. We are still trying to think of something special to do for our little man that day, although it may be a bit difficult as DH will be on nite shift that weekend.

Anyway sorry to hijack your post & ramble, but the short of it is I'm thinking of you both.