I just want to say thanks to everyone for your kind messages and a special thanks to Willow for your many many texts yesterday and today. You are such an amazing friend and you mean the world to me.

Rach Thanks for your texts too hunny. I really do appreciate everything you've done.

Also Michelle Thanks for your texts too. I know all to well how scary this time is for you and I'm so sorry for that. I wish I could make everything better for you and make the next few weeks fly by uneventfully for you. Happy Birthday to Lily for tomorrow and I hope you all have a lovely day today

I'm just so shattered right now. I can't describe my hurt and anger and frustration. I mean I did all the right things ie taking meds like I should have eaten all tghe right things done all the tests etc etc etc and it still didn't help. I just don't know what the hell I'm meant to do right now. I know I've been through this before and have come out the other side but this one is just hurting soooo much more for some reason.
I'm just so thankful to the hospital staff at Belmont on Thursday and the the staff at JHH yesterday were great too even though I had to beg for an ultra sound to confirm what I knew deep down was going on. And the poor young Dr who had to do my procedure last night I wouldn't have wished that apon my worst enemy he composed himself so so well that I wouldn't have any idea how nervous he was until the lovely nurse told me about it afterwards.
Anyway I'm sorry for all that. I'm going to go now and probably won't be back on here for a couple of weeks as we are still going away tomorrow.
I wish you all a much happier Christmas and New year and please if someone can let me know via text when Spring has her bub that would be great.

Spring I wish you all the very best and can't wait to hear about the wonderful birth of your baby.