Mako - aww hun i honestly wish there was a little button i could push to make your pain go away!! Life truely does suck at times. And its always the nice/beautiful ppl who seem to get the bad deal. I hope you, DH and your sweet little boy try and enjoy christmas. I know how hard it is to be "cheerful" when you are grieving.
As soon as you get home from holiday we are meeting up for a BIG hug!!!! xoxo