Oh Kelly, whinge all you like hun. We all certainly understand! I know what you mean about your head (and heart ) 'allowing' certain things......that's what I meant when there's sometimes no rhyme or reason. Please feel free to be upfront with me, if that's what it takes. I don't want to leave you alone, when you don't have a big support network here . Of course you're spewing you can't go in the pool!!!!!!! How annoying. And of course, another daily reminder of what you're going through. Enjoy your holidays hun, but don't forget to leave some time for yourself to grieve, especially while you have all that support around you. I hope tomorrow is a nice day for you, and not too difficult

Michelle, De-Nile sounds good hey? But you are unfortunately too well versed in these matters to go there now I think . I thought you might be spewing about holding off your announcement........I'm sorry you're going through this, it's so unfair .