Lee I have felt this for you for some time. I can't think coherently as I have tonsillitis and I have taken some pain meds so I can sleep... (it's gone to my ears - of course it has nothings ever simple here!)..

Please phone me. I would love to talk to you - support you, help you. Only you know what is right for you - but whatever it is you need support and love around you. You have that here with us.