thanks MantaRay for your quick reply

i had thought about telling her a few little details but i am so scared she would go to school and say something like " my mum cant have babies" or something along them lines, as she has done something like this before but it was when we were doing around of fertility drugs and she over heard us talking about the 2 eggs we had and she went a said my mum has 2 babies and i had to explain to her that they werent babies and theni had to try and play dumb to my friends that she had just said that in front of as they know nothing about our journey.

i have mentioned a few times to her that we might not get a baby and she will stop talking about it for a day or so but then its like she forgets and starts telling me about what she is going to do with her little brother or sister when they arrive, and tells me names that she would like to call them.

I suppose all i can do is just keep on telling her that it "might happen one day" but also tell like i have been that " we might not be able to have another one, but its ok cos she is my baby"

i just feel so god damn frusturated as a mum, i can give this little girl anything she wants in this world but i just cant give her this

thanks again MantaRay