I 100 & 10% agree with you.

Based on my knowledge now I believe my son has autism because of me. You know what, that hurts. It certainly makes me wish I had known more before and I could have avoided him going through what he is experiencing. BUT it is also empowering. Because I am open to that knowledge I understand WHY is autistic and HOW we can fix it.

If I could turn back time, I would. But I can't so there is no point wallowing in guilt or denying the truth so we just get on with making things better.