Lulu, big and all the best for the assessment interview today. I really hope they squeeze you in ASAP. BTW I know exactly what you mean after I spent 3 months of hallucinatory sleep deprivation and then I lobbed up at the Centre and there was a woman who'd got in after 3 weeks and who was there because her to rather-well-fed-looking toddler kept chucking their(very unappealing) food off the highchair tray.
Another big and I think you're doing a wonderful job in desperate circumstances.