So W was writing a letter for me last night and I read it this morning:

Dear mum, this is hard to say but can you stop growling at me ok

and

Mum, can you stop saying not nice things to me ok mum

Poor kid. I have completely stuffed up this whole parenting thing. Did I somehow expect that all the time I spent hating being stuck at home wouldn't rub off on him? I can't even touch him without him tensing up and posturing away, and then he licks himself clean afterwards

I have two separate agencies trying to help him, but they only talk to me and he just carries on doing the same stuff. I am sure now that he has the obsessive thoughts too, he thinks he will turn into certain things if he doesn't clean it off after he has touched them.

I just want a magic cure to make him better