Oh Santosha you are speaking my language sista!

I was (am) completely blindsided by just how never ending and exhausting it is to parent 3 small people. it has just been relentless. i did put it down initally to the fact that our third baby was quite unwell and that i too was very unwell from a PPH and that those factors were the cause, but now i am wondering if it is just the dynamic of three small people?

For me, it is as well that I feel that there is no down time with them. Not to be confused with down time where they are not there, rather down time where we all sit together and enjoy quiet reading time, or craft time or something...anything! instead it seems to be a whole lot of conflicting needs and wishes (one wants to read, the other wants to dig a hole and the other just wants boob and/or cracker hahaha).

it is frustrating me no end that i just seem to not be as present as i want to be. i KNOW that i am missing out on some of the best years with my kids and am just too darn tired and overwhelmed to find a way out. I want a more simpler life but am not sure how to get there...but if i do get there i hope there is a village! Oh how i wish i had some sort of support network of a sister or brother or mother or aunt, or even friend (i have friends but not in that 'lets just hang out and fold washing and drink copious amounts of tea for a couple of hours kinda mate lol).