god bless you all.. thank you for caring. I was suprised to see replies so quickly.
I am located in Western Sydney...am currently going to Nepean Hospital for my specialist appointments...i know this sounds terrible and i am embarressed to say this but my husband and i cant afford to see anything but public help right now...

Another thing to my original message is that i was super excited about being pregnant again that i couldnt hold it in and told my close family and friends. I was so upset by so many of their reactions "Oh Nikkita dont tell me till your after 3 months to make it easier on you"... etc etc... has anyone else been in the same situation? i just think that after everything that if i am brave enough to tell the people closest to me that they should be excited aswell... i mean, they are the ones that are meant to care for me if anything bad happens... strange.