No i have not had any counselling... there is a bad faily history with a counsellor and i am honeslty afraid to try it. Everyone is telling me to go...i will go if tomorrows news is bad - i think i will have to... i cant see myself coping. i guess im just sick of people telling me to 'put my chin up' if things go wrong...i dont think i have any strength left to do it... and im afraid the counsellor will tell me the same thing.
The good news is that straight after my appointment tomorrow morning i am coming to work so will be straight on here to tell you the outcome... unless its bad and then i wont be back here for a couple days...
so that will be the easiest way for you guys to tell...