Powelly - that's the way to get jiggy with this journey! Didn't mean to bring tears though... hugs.

I just thought of something else that helped me, and is totally based on my own experiences and not from my counselling sessions or talking with other bereaved mums. It's about celebrating this pregnancy. For me, despite all my other fears and quirks about not getting a pregnancy ticker, not joining a baby buddies thread ( have you thought about that? I did and there were women in there who had suffered m/c and some who hadn't, but it was really nice to be able to almost normalise the pregnancy by sharing the journey with others at exactly the same stage. I say almost because, the fear at times can be paralysing and the dread and forboding so overwhelming but I did like seeing what other women were experiencing in what I thought were "normal" pregnancies. And, I am still in that thread with those women and they are a great source of support to this day) It might also help with your feelings of isolation... maybe even if you just lurk in that thread for a while and see how you go before you plunge in? Whoops off on a tangent there.... sorry.

You identified the point precisely.... if you don't tell people, then they can't offer their support. So maybe another way to rejoice in the miracle of life you are so beautifully nuturing is to gradually extend the circle of people who know?

And about isolation... I so understand your feelings there. Not to talk about myself too much ( oh dear, how I love to do that... LOL), but at 7 and a half weeks I stopped work and went on to a modified best rest... I didn't actually ever get around to asking the Obs what he meant by that, but I kind of made it up as I went along depending on how I felt, but I pretty much kept to my bed/lounge. Pretty much my sources of personal support was DH, my cats, and BB and one friend who visited me every two weeks. Apart from that my Mum called me but she was busy caring for my brother who's not well and she lives 2 hours away anyway. My Dad openly admitted not being able to call me because he was too scared to get bad/sad news. It was a very very lonely time. No work, no sports, no socialising, no movies... though I did sneak out for a take away coffee sometimes. I wonder why people didn't visit me, and I think it's a lot of factors but one of which was I actually kept people away. Not sure why when I was desperately lonely. I think it's because I didn't want them to see my house messy and me all vulnerable? Besides who likes to entertain guests from the regal position of lying in bed or on the lounge in a schmoz of a house. It's funny though since Hannah has been here, I've not cared so much about what the house looked like when I've had guests, and I have invited them in.

The one thing is being by myself so much got me to actually slow down and I got used to my own company and also gave me plenty to time to think and really explore my feelings. I was on BB a LOT too....

Anyway, got to run.... belly rubs from me! 14 and half weeks is a very good achievement!

Jo - OMG - you sound so much like me and the nursery except we gave our bed away to my cousin. I am so excited for you.... nominally 5 weeks to go! I am sooooooooooo excited for you.

Laney - are you snowed in with that terrible blizzard? How do you cope with little ones? I'll bet they get cabin fever. Hugs to you boys for me.

Teni - 34 weeks girl - look at you and Cookie go. Belly rubs.