Dory, good luck with your up coming scan. I know very well the feelings that you are having. With Grayson, I just couldn't bring myself to believe that he was coming home. I felt positive that I was doing the right thing with the blood thinner injections. It was impossible to get over the feeling that I was going to lose him at any moment. It did get a tiny bit easier when I could feel him moving all day. If he even stopped for a second I was poking at him to get him to move more.

I am very surprised that I have been coping much better this time around. It does help that Grayson keeps me very busy. I think that it also helps that I am not suffering from the depression that I had since Parker's death. I do find myself getting a bit emotional this week. I think that is because Shelby's 2nd angel day and Parker's 3rd are both very soon. I do have my moments when I feel like a crazy lady again too. I think that is because in 6 weeks I have my big scan. The scan when they told me that Parker and Shelby were not doing well. I am trying hard to stay positive. My high risk doctor always told me that the odds are in my favor so I am trying to tell myself that.