You know what - you don't trust your body. It is impossible to believe that it can actually cook a healthy baby to term until after it happens. I was in denial with DS1. I worked to 38 weeks. I packed my labour bag in labour with a breech presentation (trial of vaginal breech) and was extremely relieved to not have to wait for that first cry when it all went pear shaped and we needed an emergency c-section. I wanted a vaginal birth but I was still terrified that I would not hear a cry when it was all over and the thought of that was devastating.

So you are perfectly normal. And it sucks lemons. You are a pregnant woman after a loss. You will never again be that carefree pregnant woman excitedly waiting for their baby to arrive. But you have us. And (unfortunately) we understand