I'm going to lock this thread now, it's just going around in circles. Simone, you know what you have to do and you know you have our support. But we can't do anything else for you now - you need to make that step. I hope everything is okay with you and your baby, post and let us know after you've had a check-up as I am sure everyone would love to know what is happening after hearing your story. I hope you can be seen asap.