I just seen this thread lorelle!!
Goodluck with your sunspot next week. I am hoping it will be good news...
And miracles do happen so fingers crossed for the hpt too .
hun, here's wishing you the best.. i really hope you are!!!
all that DTD with a toddler, geez, i dont even have the energy with a 20mths and I'm only 36!!
You inspire us, hun!!
what's the story w the crow? just as i was reading it, adam hill called on this guy on spicks and specks and his name's something mccrow....
Thanks for your well wishes for next week lovely ladies ... GP said i will have a scar on my arm BUT i just didn't care, just feel lucky to be alive these days
Prama, one of the gals here said when Maz mentions a crow it means a pregnancy ... funny you mentioned Adam as my DP is an Adam
... i myself have been seeing a single Magpie each day since my SIL's death which i googled means " 1 magpie for sorrow ", BUT yet i haven't seen a magpie since the day i put on this thread !!
... UPDATE ; ... i started spotting since last Thurs with severe cramps & boobies still very sore and then AF arrived yesterday, as all arrived early i spoke with my GP today when having biopsy done and the earliest i could book in with her was in 3wks times (also find out early next week if melanoma or not with biopsy)
So sorry everyone no great news here ... BUT it was a BEAUTIFUL feeling of HOPE to have even though it was for a little while and it's clear to me now the last time i will EVER experience it ... i feel so sad & incredibly flat as it felt like i had a last chance there but it wasn't meant to be
Just hope my little sweet 3.5year old DD " Miss C " will be proud of me one day that i tried for such a long time since she was 14mths old ... and that i still shone some light of hope even at nearly 44years of age !!!
... HEARTFELT THANKS to ' those ' who were hopeful along side me, that was just the loviest xox
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i feel much of what you write, in my case, a baby now would have to be by immaculate conception, but as time goes on, bilby is about to turn three, my "chance" is slipping away too. But not the cluck factor in me, that is as strong as ever. I grieve each time i move on some of bilby's outgrown stuff, because i would much rather keep it for a sibling. but that is not going to happen.
and sunspots are suddenly appearing allover me, even though i don't spend much time in the sun, am good at covering up with sunblock, hats etc. i even wear long sleeve antiskincancer tops in summer!
Gigi ... yeh, how awful is that deep pain in your heart every time you pack away or even give away their clothes ... it's like another milestone where they are getting further & further away from 1st being a newborn then a baby then a toddler ... my watching DD become a little girl now has gone far too fast for me to the point at times i feel like i'm grieving (IYKWIM) ... i would do anything to wave a magic wand to make those feelings go away as i live with them each day. And it's the constant reminder especially when our child turns 2 onwards while everyone around us with a child the same age seems to so easily go on to have their 2nd child ... i told DP the other night how as much as i genuinely feel happy for them at the same time it slaps me in the face with my own situation & i look at my DD with a little sadness & even a little guilt that she won't have a sibling & that it will be just her playing on her own (when DP & i are not). Also DP the other night was shocked to hear my say when i hear of someone pregnant or have given birth my 1st reaction is i'm just so darn excited then within moments later how inadequate as a woman it makes me feel & i feel my body has let me down so therefore i have let the ' 3 ' of us down. I have to constantly each & every day remind myself of how incredibly lucky i am to have a child & try and get past these emotions that at times drag me down ... i just strive to get past these feelings & ENJOY all of what i have with my DD, as she simply is just so wonderful & loving & i often think how lucky was i that she got to be MY daughter ... then i feel so much better again until the next time. I can only hope it gets better & easier as times goes by
(Gigi ... go get the spots checked out at your local Doc, seriously it's so easy & the appt doesn't take long, at least it will be peace of mind for you !!)
I'm sorry i was so hoping that this time would be the time. Yes packing away tiny clothes then slightly bigger clothes can be so heart breaking.. I remember the feeling so well with my oldest daughter and the feeling that she would'nt have a sibling to play with and I would'nt ever have another baby, boy they grow faster when you feel like that I reckon!!!!
But years later as an older mum here I find myself fate is an amazing thing. There is no reason to stop TTC, DH and I always thought we would continue to not use an precautions and if a baby came out of it, fantastic..
Goodluck with everyhting including that sunspot, mole thingy.. I hear you on that one as well, unfortunately to many years in the sun with tanning oil!!!!!
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