... UPDATE ; ... i started spotting since last Thurs with severe cramps & boobies still very sore and then AF arrived yesterday, as all arrived early i spoke with my GP today when having biopsy done and the earliest i could book in with her was in 3wks times (also find out early next week if melanoma or not with biopsy)

So sorry everyone no great news here ... BUT it was a BEAUTIFUL feeling of HOPE to have even though it was for a little while and it's clear to me now the last time i will EVER experience it ... i feel so sad & incredibly flat as it felt like i had a last chance there but it wasn't meant to be

Just hope my little sweet 3.5year old DD " Miss C " will be proud of me one day that i tried for such a long time since she was 14mths old ... and that i still shone some light of hope even at nearly 44years of age !!!

... HEARTFELT THANKS to ' those ' who were hopeful along side me, that was just the loviest xox