Four pregnancies, one child. Two of those my period wasn't even late - but the sucky thing about IVF is that you know there's an embryo put back... I get symptoms from the moment of implantation so I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was pregnant and then I wasn't. The clinic's blood tests confirmed trace amounts of HCG.

I remember the night I realised I was losing my first baby (around 9 weeks), I had latched onto that 1 in 4 statistic and was madly counting the women in my belly buddies group and counting the miscarriages and I felt that if the numbers were ok, then I'd keep my baby. Oddly enough, to keep the 1 in 4 statistic, one more baby had to be lost... mine. I'm not known for my rational thinking in times of stress and upset!

BW