Thank you for your words of comfort I think it was mostly shock it wasn't really a reaction you'd expect! I talked to her for about 3 hours explaining the situation, she said she doesn't hate me for what i've done but she is disappointed and hoped for better for me in life because she loves me and feels I've taken a step backwards in life. I said I understand that these are her views but I am happy and its not the babies fault its coming early in my life and who the dad is and we are both happy for a bubsie in our lives. She is still very upset she was in tears I'm not worrying myself about it though I said if she wants to still be apart of my life that is great but if not I can understand that she has to do some "moral soul searching" for a while. Really I don't care now what she does I'm pretty sure she won't talk to me again but hey its her loss if she doesnt want to be in bubbies life.

I can understand those who have had a bad reaction out of jealousy. I was living with some friends when I first found out I was pregnant as we couldnt find a house that would allow indoor animals in our price range. The couple I was with had been trying to fall pregnant for two years (shes 19, hes 45) and she said that she was jealous, was ****ed off and I had two months to get the hell out. They are still sort of speaking to me, one of my aunties was a little icy she tried but had a m/c but do have one daughter. I think you are 100% right ella, its their own unhappiness and insecurities in life that cause ppl to act like this.

It just sort of shows who your true friends are, I really thought my one and only life long friend would hate me for life she completely disowned another friend of hers in the same situation (mind you we were all 16 at the time) but shes all excited and 100% supportive of me. Then the one I think will be supportive says my bubs is "morally wrong" go figure! lol

I'm so glad for the most part ppl have a good supportive network, I know I'll make new friends with birthing of bubs and mummies groups etc, its just sort of a rude shock, like I said, when people do react so completely negatively against something so natural and beautiful I get all defensive because they are taking it out on not only me but my baby saying they cant be in our lives.

I told a new uni friend of mine yesterday, I was really worried telling her because she wants kids so badly (no partner yet shes 27 but is scared the clock is ticking), she admited that she was jealous but she is very happy for me and wants to be there for me the whole way. she said the jealousy is her own problem and its not me or bubbers fault for that, which I thought was very mature and nice she could admit it but still handle it well, I still dont really want to talk to her about much tho because I dont want to seem Im rubbing it in her face.

Now Im sort of scared to tell the rest of my friends, I know if I lose them then they werent really my friends to begin with, but its still very hurtful. Maybe I should just put a blog on myspace and wait for the "WTF???" phone calls and emails to come flooding in! LMAO